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oh the years have not been kind,
they rush away just like sand,
That has been caught up in a stream,
and now the silence I can’t stand,
But I can’t seem to break it,
I always hoped that there was more,
I open my mouth, but it’s just noise,
No I don’t sing anymore
Oh the paper it just lays there,
In a neat unblemished square,
Though it’s had so many words,
It seems the author didn’t care,
Cuz those words went up in flames,
Writing them down felt like a chore,
That pen itt weighs a thousand tons,
No I don’t write anymore
Oh the wind used to feel cold,
And the sunshine hot as hell,
But now it all feels like a blur,
Now I cannot seem to tell,
Maybe the light is all outside,
But years ago I closed the door,
Seems I cannot find the knob,
No I don’t feel it anymore
Oh the world seems to have lost me,
Or maybe I just lost the world,
It don’t listen to me these days,
And I can’t catch the stones it hurls,
Maybe it’s got nothing else to show,
Just the sex, the blood, the gore,
Used to think that it was more,
No I don’t know anymore
No I don't know anymore
No I don't know anymore
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When I was younger I used to dream of
The city lights and telecast screens and
I was gonna be something more than I am...
But time went on and time got mean and
I never ended up where I wanted to be and
The more I learned the less I could understand
But from where I was and where I am now
Guess it might have been right somehow
Maybe that bit of trust is all I need
So God give me a bit of patience
Patience for then
Cuz haste and lust is the
Downfall of men
God give me a little patience
Patience to mend
We’re always rushing off to meet
Our end
Growing old is always hard when
The world leaves the aging out to starve and
You're on the rise but then you lose your place
And it leaves you bleeding, leave you scarred
And cold always catches you off guard and
Soon the valleys from outside are on your face
There aint no shame in buying used and
Shiny things are often abused and
And good things don’t always come with speed
So God give me a bit of patience
Patience for then
Cuz haste and lust is the
Downfall of men
God give me a little patience
Patience to mend
We’re always rushing off to meet
Our end
Coming home doesnt mean your done
Might mean a bigger battles being won
Most things you want arent things you need
So God give me a bit of patience
Patience for then
Cuz haste and lust is the
Downfall of men
God give me a little patience
Patience to mend
We’re always rushing off to meet
Our end
Always rushing off to some new sin
Better where I am than where I’ve been
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Oh the world won't wait for us at all
It don’t care if your engine has stalled
Better push rest of the way
Cuz you're still on call
Oh the world won't wait for us at all
Oh a man aint allowed to be sad
No a man aint allowed to be sad
Well they love you when you're happy,
And hate you when you’re mad
But no a man aint allowed to be sad
I gotta dig this grave all by myself
Don’t expect that anyone shall help,
The shovels snapping in my hands,
Life just ended with a yelp
Oh I gotta dig this grave all by myself
I don't know how to say goodbye
don't know if I should even try
It doesn't matter to them,
Guess I’ll just pretend I’m fine,
I just don’t know how to say goodbye
Oh a man aint allowed to be sad
No a man aint allowed to be sad
Well they love you when you're happy,
And hate you when you’re mad
But no a man aint allowed to be sad
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In the evening, in the evening
I’ll no longer be alone, all the ugliness gone
In the evening
When I come home , when I come home,
she’ll be sittin by the tree, as pretty as can be
when I come home
It's been one year, since I went away,
would things have turned out any different if I’d stayed?
I tried to be, the one to forget,
Cus all these memories they cause me such pain
but I could not, just let you go,
I suppose I bet my life on chance, all I am
are we not Pawns? Emperors or fools?
a simple contradictive love, lambs and lions
ooooooooo but who are we?
ooooooooo but eyes that can’t see?
ooooooooo we can’t regret what we’ve done?
ooooooooo but I’ll be home when the evening comes.
It is not good, to be alone,
if we are all faces in crowds, flesh and bones
did we ever, leave that cave,
are we not more than a numbered pages, or souls to save
ooooooooo but who are we?
ooooooooo but eyes that can’t see?
ooooooooo we can’t regret what we’ve done?
ooooooooo but I’ll be home when the evening comes.
do we sit estranged outside this garden,
am I to be dirt once my life ends,
do we pay any mind to this royal pardon,
it seems one becomes the time he spends,
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entle whispers fading white,
Brief glimpses of heavens light,
Caressing breezes out of sight,
Warm embraces born of right,
Grieving heart pains that you clutch
How can something thats good hurt so much,
Don’t let your tragedy be your crutch,
Stronger men have fallen from such….
My courage always seems to fold,
It seems we have sinned and grown old,
In our own interest we’ve squandered our trust
And this Maker is far more youthful than us….
Corner edges feel too rough,
Nothing we do feels like enough,
In our own favor that we’ve willed,
This endless hole just can’t be filled,
My courage always seems to fold,
It seems we have sinned and grown old,
In our own interest we’ve squandered our trust
And this Maker is far more youthful than us….
Raging thunder in our ears,
Our minds get trampled by our fears,
We forgot how to just be….
How to submit to be set free
My courage always seems to fold,
It seems we have sinned and grown old,
In our own interest we’ve squandered our trust
And this Maker is far more youthful than us…
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Oh my friend, my dear friend what should I do
It seems I've fallen over such depths for you
You’ve awakened an ache in my chest that won’t go
Every time I cut it from me the feeling only grows
Now my dear I never set out to fall in Love
Every time I gave it thought I was never enough
And it seems for the first time I cannot run away
It seems pain might be the only way
But at your door I know not what to say
Now I’ve sang a few songs and I've drove a few miles
Going somewhere for something to do that for awhile
My friend I was living from season to season,
And then in my moving I needed no reason
Now you might turn your head and think me a fool
And call me unrealistic and darling it's true
Cuz I’ve become def and blind to this fear
But that aint a bad thing my dear
No that sure ain't a bad thing my dear
And with a heavy heart there are good things to bring
I'll keep this tune in my mouth even if I can't sing
If you’re already walking mind if I come along
If I can’t I'll just keep wandering on
No I won't be doomed to just sit and wonder why
And I'll be damned if this bird gets no chance to try
To fly from this cliff of uncertain goodbyes
It will not be in vein if it dies it’s the reason for staying alive
And with all that I am I will try to make sure this isn’t a last goodbye
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Oh the years have not been kind,
they rush away just like sand,
That has been caught up in a stream,
and now the silence I can’t stand,
But I can’t seem to break it,
I always hoped that there was more,
I open my mouth, but it’s just noise,
No I don’t sing anymore
Oh the paper it just lays there,
In a neat unblemished square,
Though it’s had so many words,
It seems the author didn’t care,
Cuz those words went up in flames,
Writing them down felt like a chore,
That pen itt weighs a thousand tons,
No I don’t write anymore
Oh the wind used to feel cold,
And the sunshine hot as hell,
But now it all feels like a blur,
Now I cannot seem to tell,
Maybe the light is all outside,
But years ago I closed the door,
Seems I cannot find the knob,
No I don’t feel it anymore
Oh the world seems to have lost me,
Or maybe I just lost the world,
It don’t listen to me these days,
And I can’t catch the stones it hurls,
Maybe it’s got nothing else to show,
Just the sex, the blood, the gore,
Used to think that it was more,
No I don’t know anymore
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released December 16, 2022
